Tuesday, November 11, 2014

my weight loss toolbox: all the right junk in all the right places

my weight loss toolbox/"all the right junk in all the right places"
I'm not losing weight as quickly as I would like to be. Cue sad music. You may remember that I got pregnant 2 years ago when I was 1 lb away from my goal weight (after having lost 40+ lbs). I gained more than the recommended weight gain during pregnancy. In 3 out of my 4 pregnancies, I gained more than I was "supposed to." My last doctor made me feel better when I expressed concern by saying that I have good body chemistry seeing as how my blood pressure was good and I had no complications (like gestational diabetes). Also, I hardly (if ever) got nauseous, ate fairly well (I had my moments of unhealthy cravings), exercised regularly, and felt pretty great throughout my pregnancy this last time (other than being tired occasionally).

As the pounds kept creeping up during my pregnancy though, I was feeling bad about it. During one low, hormonally crazed moment, I sadly told Jesse, "All that work [before my pregnancy] for nothing." He pointed at my heart and said, "You have a healthy ticker for you and for the baby. Doesn't that mean anything?"

Right now I am losing weight s.l.o.w.l.y. I'm exercising regularly and eating fairly well. I feel like my body is in mama bear mode. I packed on the weight during pregnancy. Right now that I'm still nursing, I am still overweight and losing the weight (one more time) s.l.o.w.l.y. But my Juli is healthy, happy, and growing. The other day I thought, "Maybe this is just how it has to be for a while." Her health and well-being are my current priority.

I need to give up my notion of having the "ideal" body. What does that even mean? I forget to be grateful for this amazing body of mine. I have healthy, thriving, growing, happy children. My body rocked making babies. And? My pant size can wait.

I will continue to exercise, eat better, concern myself with these relevant health issues, but learn to appreciate my curvy, mama bear body. I have "all the right junk in all the right places." ;)

(Want to know more about My Weight Loss Toolbox? Start here, and continue here).