Friday, September 14, 2012
one-night stand with oreos
I ate Oreo cookies excessively last night. I have problems eating at night, in general. I'm trying to wean myself of this habit. I've read there are several reasons why people eat excessively at night, and I can think of two that apply to me.
The first reason is that I haven't eaten enough throughout the day; therefore, I truly am hungry at night. In the afternoon/early evening, I go a long period without eating. I am helping my girls' with their homework, getting them ready for school the next day, getting dinner ready, etc. It is hectic, and I forget to eat. I think that's why I overeat at dinner and binge eat the rest of the evening. I don't always do that, but sometimes I do. I am trying to teach myself to schedule my meals to eat every 3 hours or so to feel satisfied throughout the day, and allow my stomach to rest at night. I believe it is an organ that needs rest.
The second reason is that I am bored. I am running around most of the day, and at night, I sit down, watch TV, wander aimlessly, or engage in purposeless activity. The point it that it is not structured time. Does that make sense? I have a tendency to mindlessly eat. The truth is that I don't like vegging in front of the TV. It feels useless to me, and I think I eat to feel productive/useful. It's silly, I know, but I think I do it to occupy my time, and feel as though I am doing something.
Another point is that I can't make food an outlet for de-stressing (is that a word?). I think we all need indulgences in our lives to counteract some normal, everyday stress. It can't always be food. I think an occasional treat is harmless, but a regular night of overeating is obviously not good. I need to get creative and indulge in other ways like reading, crafting, a walk around Target, etc. It takes so much discipline to acknowledge in the heat of the moment that I am using food as an outlet and that I need to be more creative and expend useful energy some other way.
I'm trying not to feel too bad about the Oreo cookies... I am trying to learn from my mistakes.
***In other news, I am joining Becky's project at Farmgirl Paints: Operation Zip Those Pants. Whenever I post something on instagram (jessicarrodarte) related to my weight loss journey, I will add the #operationzipthosepants hashtag. Maybe you'll play along, too?***
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